Between Dreams and Reality Album Cover
Keeper of systems.
I knew it was God who wanted me to be on staff at my church when I first signed on. There was no doubt about that. But what I never figured out was how my music was going to play into my church roles. It has always been a struggle for me. Church or music. Do I really have to choose? Because I want to do everything with excellence, I want to be all in – with everything! The God and the people that I serve deserve nothing less.
When we were younger, we felt like we could be everything at the same time. We were Dreamers. We were free. For me, changing the world was totally possible because I was going to be an officer by day and vigilante by night. I would also play pro basketball just as a creative outlet. But dreams quickly begin to meet reality at the same rate that we begin to realize our own limitations. What a sad day. Discouragement sets in. The once wide-eyed kid who thought anything was possible now realizes the frailty of humanity. Time and money are like chains that prevent us from reaching our dreams which are conveniently placed in the distant galaxy. The sky is no longer beautiful. It’s just a depressing reminder of what could have been but will probably never be. We go from “thrive” to “survive”, dreams to nightmares, and some of us even wish that the story of our lives would just end already.
But there is hope. There is glory if you can endure the story.
My hope lies in knowing that my steps really are ordered of the Lord. I serve a real God who really is Lord of all. And He loves me. He’s smarter than me. He directs my passions. He calls me to obedience for His glory and for my good. He has given me promises, and has placed desires in me that He will fulfill. He has spoken over my destiny and He is not a liar. All I have to do is trust Him and endure. And during those times when I feel weak, He gives me faith to believe again. He gives me hope to dream again. And He helps me make sense of this craziness called life when I feel like I’m living Between Dreams and Reality.
Listen to Jarrell’s two singles below…